Odds are, to survive professionally or socially, you've dampened some of the most interesting things about you. Those are the things that offer the most value to the world. Own your outcast status.
The Queen's death is a powerful inciting incident. An opportunity to ask important collective questions about our history and the kind of society we want to live in. Is it time for you to muse?
Some games can't be won, and need the rules need changing. Stop trying to optimise yourself and start tearing down the structures that keep you trapped.